Daddy

Warning .. stream of consciousness ahead …

He’s been gone since ’99… but every once in a while he appears in a dream.

The dreams have changed over the years.

At first I wanted to know (in the dream) where he’s been hiding… what has he been doing since I’d seen him last …. and he wanted to know where his meager savings had gone…

Now - Lately… in my dreams … I’m always wanting to organize …

And Daddy… in my dreams these last few years…
He doesn’t play a big role - but sits in the passenger seat … watching me drive.
Some of my most favorite times as a 15 year old -  were learning to drive with my Daddy in the passenger seat.
Sometimes … I really want to hear that soothing reassurance that things will be ok..
and then I wake up and realize …

it is all a dream